On and off since my 20’s I’ve been having a reoccurring dream where I’m in a house, the same house and it’s huge and shitty and have no control in the dream. Then last year the house changed. It was this mansion that was like the pinnacle of elegance, that’s the quickest way to explain it. Then it changed to a very nice apartment that also seemed more realistic. This time it was in Chattanooga and it was an apartment. But it was the absolute nicest and largest apartment. It had a library, an office, multiple bedrooms, it looked and felt perfect. I was over the moon! So much so, that in the dream I started thinking “this can’t be real” “something will ruin this” Then I hear a knock at the door. It was a very old and frail man trying to immediately push a green leather chair thru the door. I asked what he was doing and he said he lived there. I told him he didn’t and that I just leased it and moved in We go to the office and were talking to the leasing agent or the landlord thru an old timey looking speaker, could only hear the voice and no window to this person. The agent says “sir you can’t live here without a contract agreement” the old man turns to me and says “ha!” , I said, dude he’s talking about you not me! And the agent says correct, it’s Clint’s apartment. I go back up and keep unpacking. Then my brother visits with his daughter Ruby. We’re hanging out and he notices a group of guys outside the window loitering and all dressed the same and strangely. He says, “oh those are the (insert criminal gang name here, I don’t remember) and they are hardly anywhere, I’m surprised you have them here” He leaves, then later I walk out side, one of those guys runs towards me and the door and I jump inside and lock it. He breaks thru the window with a crow bar and is on top of me. I wrestle the crow into my control and then strangle him to death from underneath. I’m historically crying now. Hen same thing another breaking and we fight. I kill him too and by that point I’m now safe, no more intruders. But I’m completely beside myself, almost having a mental break… This whole time I’m randomly waking up in my bed in real life but I keep diving back into the dream too see how it would unfold. There is like a whole part 2 😂 but the point is I’ve never felt this way and it really weirded me out lol
This dream may reflect your inner feelings and subconscious thoughts about control, change, and unexpected challenges. The recurring theme of being in a house that you feel you have no control over could symbolize feelings of powerlessness or uncertainty in your waking life. The evolution of the house from a huge and shitty place to a mansion of elegance to a realistic and nice apartment may signify the growth and transformation you have experienced over the years.
The sense of elation and disbelief at the perfection of the last apartment could represent your deep desire for stability, comfort, and success. The old man trying to claim the apartment may symbolize potential obstacles or past issues resurfacing to challenge your newfound happiness. The interaction with the leasing agent through an old-timey speaker suggests a lack of clear communication or understanding in a situation.
The appearance of the criminal gang outside the apartment window may represent external threats, fears, or negative influences in your life. Your brother's warning about the gang could indicate concern for your safety or well-being. The intense confrontation and struggle with the intruders in your apartment may reflect your inner battle against external pressures or adversities.
The emotional turmoil you experience in the dream, including feeling beside yourself and having a possible mental break, could suggest inner turmoil or a sense of being overwhelmed by challenges or emotions in your waking life. The repeated waking up in real life and diving back into the dream could indicate a struggle between confronting reality and escaping into subconscious thoughts and fears.
Overall, this dream may be a reflection of your subconscious processing of personal growth, challenges, fears, and the desire for control and security in your life. It may be helpful to reflect on these themes and consider how they relate to your current circumstances and emotions.